'Nothing Gonna Change My Love For You'......what I need actually....T_T....???

Sorry for who used to read my blog and I would like to post my new blog today with my feeling and the weather is suitable for me to show and write my blog....I've been long time never update my blog because I'm really busy with my study after the 2nd semester started in college......In here I would like to ask what is the meaning for those who used to read my blog.....the meaning of the title of the song.....It is a very happy for who those used to sing for their lover or used to been sing by their lover in different place or situation to let them know that they will never change between their love to each others feeling and love??? Or is a very sad to someone who used to litsen the song so that can have their sad or happy memories for them in the past with the person that they really love.....?? If u ask me, I would like to tell you all who used to read my blog will reminds me and flase back my sweet memories between me and my ex that we have our relationship more than a years.....but when I litsen to this song is really makes me think back the feeling and the caring that she used to treated me before this and also have the sad memories for me when I've litsen to this song....and also consider have a very happy memories....and because of this, why I have this feeling and just appear the feeling in my heart today when I litsen to this song....Is this shows that I still haven't forgot her in the past relationship that I had with her before this....or this is can tell me that I'm still lying for myself so that I could not face the true of her that had left my in almost past half years before this....or this is the sign that really tell me I've stil never forgot her and then feeling still have in my heart when I think be her in some awhile time when I'm alone or litsening to some song that really meaning for me??? Maybe is because of the meaning of the lyrics that makes me or prove that I still love her after we broke up...or maybe I've think too much when the time that I've nothing to do at home or everywhere.......Till today, I still really don't know what I need in right now....Before this I have a big argue with her and we never talk to each other for long period but when the problem till know consider have been solved but till now also I never talk to her no matter in where or in what situation.....Is that already show that I've not a gentleman to a girl??? Or she still angry of me.....to become a friend is it as easy as a piece of cake or not....till now me and here don't even know that I'm still a friend for her or not, of why I still so care about it and is this show that I'm still mind that she accept me as her friend or not and maybe is really because that I really still have the feeling to her or what.......This is a very meaningfull song for those who read my blog or my fellow friends that know me well or quite well because maybe is really a nice song to you all when litsen in different situation or sing to their lover in front of them or just sing for then in the phone......After I've litsen to this song, I'm still thinking that am I still love her and never fully let her go yet in my heart with those feeling that she used to been comfort or makes me happy before in the past.....the way that she cares me is it really make me till today that I've still never let her go yet or I'm just want to stay in my own world so that I don't want to face that in my life right now.....Actually what I need now???? Can someone tell me or what I have to do right now....Am I gonna find the new lover so that can forget it the past or just be single to life till I find or just wait for the fate comes to me in the future....She really the meaning and what is true love in this world....Lover a person is a good things and also could be hard and suffer for us because love a person that you could not love anymore is very hard to a person in this world....without a lover will suffer the loneliness...if have a lover that can be with you everyday will be more arguement if could not understand each other between the relation ship.....what I need actually till today??? This question is still in my mind.....then lyrics of the song I just love a sentence of it and that sentence is 'our love will lead the way for us'........
If without a lover could we lost our way in this world or we can't survive anymore without a lover and will be only daed end in the rest of our life????......What can I do....and who can tell me what should I do........I really hope that this is not true person of me or I'm still in my dream or my own world.....or just like hiding in my own turtle shell.....don't dare to do anything or still can't accept that she had left me......Am I that kind of person to all my blog reader or my fellow friend's.....????

2 weeks after starts sem2 (part 2).....

Yesterday's class is called C.A.D.....in my course, C.A.D means Culinary Arts & Design is one of my subject in this course.....In this subject, will learn all about skills of curving in this subject such as fruit curving, vegetable curving and more that we have to learn for our future.....Ya, it's been long time I didn't update my blog in this few months....because is so busy about my study and all those stuff so makes me no time to write or update my blog already....sorry about it to my friends who used to read my blog and I really no time to do my stuff besides than update my blog.....In my second sem in part 2, there is all in practical classes already except for 1 class only and that is French class....After study in french language, then only I realize that language is not easy but try to be more understand and pay more attention in the class so that I can learn more easily the way to speak and write....and try to understand the meaning and sentence so that can do it well in exam and next time I will go to Switz in my future after my Diploma and maybe do my industrial training in Switz also then only decide to continue study there or work at there then only come back to Malaysia again....now still thinking about it weather will keep study until master or just work until Executive-Chef at there in future.......then we also study Food Production in hot kitchen this time.....Is the chance to study more and learn more to cook in hot kitchen and this is the time that I'm waiting for in this course....is one of the subject that I like the most in this course and can pay more attention in the class and try to cook nice and beautiful food and learn to dressing and garnishing the food more well, class, special, and looks worth for us and can sell it in better price in future when I start my training in my future after I finish my Diploma course......I hope can do better in every class in this part before in 3rd and 4th semester next year......And then this friday my friends would like to celebrate birthday with me....they celebrate early is because scare all of us no time to play or hang out everywhere it's because the end of the year then got a long holidays for us then only we hang out or go somewhere else during the holidays.....I hope this friday is good day for me and I didn't hope that because of certain people to spoil the whole things up on that day......